Enough.

Everything is fucked up. Enough

Okay I really don't know WHAT should I do to satisfy all the people

What I do is WRONG

What I do makes people UNACCEPTABLE

What I do should BE SOUGHT PERMISSION from one by one

What the hell do you want from me 

I am trying to be as close as what people needs

What you still want from me?

Isn't enough huh?

So my action is based on people's permission

My thinking should follow everyone

I love socialising with people but

I hate having a heart to heart with people

Making friends by heart huh?

Not anymore 

Enough Really Enough

I can't stand the "Heart to Heart" anymore Fuck off

Is it really HEART TO HEART? or just misunderstanding shits with sense of possession

When you don't have a heart to heart with me Why do I do that on you?

I am done with all that shits

I am done pleasing people everyday

not to make people feel upset not to make people angry

and people are still giving shits

day by day

DAY IN AND DAY OUT 

Believe me or not ?

Up to you

I just don't want to know what people are thinking

If you take me as best friend then best friend

I will give 100% trust on you

If not, whatever 

I am not sorry to everyone

We don't owe each other

 HATE ME. CONTINUE IT

I AM SICK OF FOLLOW PEOPLE STEP

WHEN THEY DON'T LIKE IT, I HAVE TO STOP

WHEN THEY LIKE IT, I HAVE TO DO

WHY DON'T YOU PLEASE ME LIKE HOW YOU NEED TO BE PLEASED?

Have a Break!

*my aunt and little joey .__.

Went to Gurney Plaza with my family at noon today ^^

Relaxing day hahahahha

I have to admit that there is a BIG relationship between mood and shopping

and today I don't feel like want to shop

I went every shop just to find some place to sit - - 

I hate testing clothes argh It's all about laziness

Taking on and off the clothes is troublesome

=____=

Mummy bought this shoulder-hand bag from Esprit for me

and of course she did bought one handbag for herself

I shouldn't say this bag is pretty

When I say something is pretty, she sure buy it for me even though I didn't mean to buy that something actually

=_________=

This make me feel guilty so muchhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh although i love it

I gonna take account for this bag as it is quite expensive for me - -

*I will  be pampered lot if my mum keep buying me something i said nice*

I will be careful when I try to say something's nice next time!
and because I don't use the bag frequently so I decide to share with my mummy ^^

I love you mum <3

And after that we went to Sushi Tei for lunch *contented*

I LOVE SUSHI!

 Mummy and Joey ^^

The hyperactive evil kid.....

It's him again *I will love him more if and only if he is not so hyperactive*

I mean don't scratch me anymore

 I like the Unagi Sushi! The Unagi is so damn thicker than the Unagi sushi from other Japanese Cuisine

and some other sushi are recommended!

I don't really remember every name of the sushi

*yumyum*

End here.

Holiday mood

I am excited so excited when I know the Bangkok trip isn't cancelled yet 

HAHAHA Im going to eat and eat and eat

and buy clothes ._. But the main purpose is enjoy the food and massage

^____________^

*I'm satisfied for Bangkok trip as I'm not a rich girl :D*

After I back from Bangkok, I'll attend activity for 3 days *perfect plan

Automatically attend activity *this would rarely happen on me*

They said want 4 days full attendance just can get the chance for concert

Whatever I never regret for being blacklisted by them in the competition or performance

Bitchy me teeheeeeeeee 

Recently LAZY-MODE is on all the times - -

I have no motivation to do the things I've planned before holiday

eg. REVISION - -

Every year the study plan during holiday is NEVER EVER success LOL

but the way I've clear the old clothes and the disused books in this year today

*feelcontented*

Mummy praised my cleaning skill is better than her if and only I don't be lazy

hahahaha Ok lar I know I look like a "don't-know-how-to-do-house-chore-girl"

but actually I do know just I don't want to do unless my mum needs my help lol

Don't know why I slowly love to stay at home right now - -

Don't feel like want to go anywhere or have any hang out 

I will be broke if I keep hanging out /.\

What if I tie my hair up when I have long hair haha = =

Unfortunately I have to stay one more year in jitsin just can have a long dreamed hair

emooooooooo

I just realised I was wearing the same shirt when I had the mood to self-snap -__-

This shirt has cursed lol

byebye ._. pointless post

MAMA 2013

MAMA 2013! 

Whole Twitter full with the sarcasm about MAMA

It's okay just like how I hate the Mozart style classic music *nooffense

Even though many people are KPOP haters 

I still like Kpop hahahha *ps I'm not the super crazy fans

*i like every pop music ;) nvm Avril is still the best LOL*

Music has no boundaries teehee
I cannot believe Crayon pop get the Best New Female Artist = = What the hell is that bar bar bar
Totally a pointless song urghhhhh
G-Dragon is legendary! He grabbed 4 awards OMG

Winners 

. Best New Male Artist : Roy Kim

2. Best New Female Artist : Crayon Pop

3. Best Male Artist : G-Dragon

4. Best Female Artist : Lee Hyori

5. Best Male Group : Infinite

6. Best Female Group : SNSD

7. Best Dance Performance - Male Solo : G-Dragon

8. Best Dance Per1formance - Female Solo : CL

9. Best Dance Performance - Male Group : SHINee

10. Best Dance Performance - Female Group : SISTAR

11. Best Vocal Performance - Male : Lee Seung Gi

12. Best Vocal Performance - Female : Ailee

13. Best Band Performance : Busker Busker

14. Best Rap Performance : Dynamic Duo

15. Best Music Video : G-Dragon

16. Best Original Soundtrack : Yoon Mi Rae

17. Discovery of theYear : Baechigi

18. Style in Music : SISTAR

19. Next Generation Global Star Award : A Pink

20. Sony MDR World Wide Performer : Infinite

21. International Favorite Artist : Ylvis

22. Music Makes One Global Ambassador : Stevie Wonder

23. best concert performer :Lee Seung Chul

Three Daesang 

Artist of the Year : G-Dragon

Song of the Year :  Cho Young Pil - Bounce

Album of the Year : EXO

Checkout Mnet Asian Music Award 2013 for more information about MAMA2013

Randooooom

 Here's the birthday celebration of ZIQIAN on 18 Nov 2013!

Hahahaha Had a blast on that day although it was raining ☂

Ate non-stop until the last second :OO

Although I said I wanted to take photo with everyone but I didn't = =

Nothing's bigger than eat *yumyum*

Our carnivorous WEIZHE acted like a professional chef in grilling

But honestly he does has a great cooking skill! HAHAHA 

here an advice for weizhe: Eat more vege lar!

Focus on the red-singlet chick ZiQian .__.

*messy-hair-me urgh*

AND FINALLY MY TEACHER UPLOAD THE PHOTOS OF BBQ

Aww I look mature than my teacher TT

Hope she will teach our class again next year! 

Teacher's kids are too steady and fierce = =

Potato kid and Butter kid

Conclusion is "Nowadays KIDS ARE TOO EVIL"

✂---------------------------------------------------

To be honest I'm not tempted to participate the concert next year

Reason 1 : I can't attend the full camp and full time every day

*I will be late and leaving earlier than one should as usual*

Reason 2 : I don't want to hear member shooting me every Saturday

Reason 3 : I'm just not tempted

Can I quit the concert? And no one can use this as a threat to me like

“If you didn't attend the activity, I will cancel your name in concert list”

Me: Cancel then cancel la Anyhow I am not the important member and even the geeky one

Next year is the last year and I just wish my uniform body can just leave me alone

You kicked me out from the group anyway so just continue to ignore me next year until the agm

and I'll be set free ✌☮ peace win-win

Part time job is so difficult to find in Alma TT

Thank you for my sister's extra class in school
Bangkok trip is cancelled *fine -,-
And I back to the nothing-to-do holiday
So I just plan to have a REVISION in december
as the preparation for SPM 2014
The result of this year is too shit

Bye ^^

Where is the love

Dancing 9 ep5 Where is the love
I love this group so much don't know why lol
and slowly fall in love in Black eye peas's song _Where is the love 
I just know that translation of black eye peas in mandarin is 黑眼豆豆
LDM
Feel very touched when watching their acceptance speech.
Nice show!


Everything is already alright maybe?

"Where Is The Love?"

What's wrong with the world, mama
People livin' like they ain't got no mamas
I think the whole world addicted to the drama
Only attracted to things that'll bring you trauma

Overseas, yeah, we try to stop terrorism
But we still got terrorists here livin'
In the USA, the big CIA
The Bloods and The Crips and the KKK

But if you only have love for your own race
Then you only leave space to discriminate
And to discriminate only generates hate
And when you hate then you're bound to get irate, yeah

Madness is what you demonstrate
And that's exactly how anger works and operates
Man, you gotta have love just to set it straight
Take control of your mind and meditate
Let your soul gravitate to the love, y'all, y'all

People killin', people dyin'
Children hurt and you hear them cryin'
Can you practise what you preach
And would you turn the other cheek

Father, Father, Father help us
Send some guidance from above
'Cause people got me, got me questionin'
Where is the love (Love)

Where is the love (The love)
Where is the love (The love)
Where is the love, the love, the love

It just ain't the same, old ways have changed
New days are strange, is the world insane?
If love and peace are so strong
Why are there pieces of love that don't belong?

Nations droppin' bombs
Chemical gasses fillin' lungs of little ones
With ongoin' sufferin' as the youth die young
So ask yourself is the lovin' really gone

So I could ask myself really what is goin' wrong
In this world that we livin' in people keep on givin' in
Makin' wrong decisions, only visions of them dividends
Not respectin' each other, deny thy brother
A war is goin' on but the reason's undercover

The truth is kept secret, it's swept under the rug
If you never know truth then you never know love
Where's the love, y'all, come on (I don't know)
Where's the truth, y'all, come on (I don't know)
Where's the love, y'all

People killin', people dyin'
Children hurt and you hear them cryin'
Can you practise what you preach
And would you turn the other cheek

Father, Father, Father help us
Send some guidance from above
'Cause people got me, got me questionin'
Where is the love (Love)

Where is the love (The love)?
Where is the love (The love)?
Where is the love (The love)?
Where is the love (The love)?
Where is the love (The love)?
Where is the love (The love)?
Where is the love, the love, the love?

I feel the weight of the world on my shoulder
As I'm gettin' older, y'all, people gets colder
Most of us only care about money makin'
Selfishness got us followin' the wrong direction

Wrong information always shown by the media
Negative images is the main criteria
Infecting the young minds faster than bacteria
Kids wanna act like what they see in the cinema

Yo', whatever happened to the values of humanity
Whatever happened to the fairness and equality
Instead of spreading love we're spreading animosity
Lack of understanding, leading us away from unity

That's the reason why sometimes I'm feelin' under
That's the reason why sometimes I'm feelin' down
There's no wonder why sometimes I'm feelin' under
Gotta keep my faith alive 'til love is found
Now ask yourself

Where is the love?
Where is the love?
Where is the love?
Where is the love?

Father, Father, Father, help us
Send some guidance from above
'Cause people got me, got me questionin'
Where is the love?

Sing with me y'all:
One world, one world (We only got)
One world, one world (That's all we got)
One world, one world
And something's wrong with it (Yeah)
Something's wrong with it (Yeah)
Something's wrong with the wo-wo-world, yeah
We only got
(One world, one world)
That's all we got
(One world, one world)

Dang!

I have no idea what's going on. I just feel like wanting to scream "FML?!" somehow

Unlucky me lead a unlucky life. Nightmare *nooneknowswhatI'mtalkingabout*
Wish my life can disconnect easily from the world like the internet network did
and connect the life back when I want to

What I was scared the most is now happening. Watch and burn.

My life can end so easily at anytime. How can I do What should I do

all the questions will just end with "Idk"

Well that's not the answer I want. I want a peaceful life! Is it so hard for me?

Perhaps I could move on and be optimistic.

Uncertainty of every tomorrow makes me insecure.

I'm so sick of myself, so sick of hiding in the sorrow sulky mood

so I am moving on from this mood.

*keepthepromiseandthanksbaby*

Come here for a abreaction so here I stop revealing shits so much about this

My hard lens has been abandoned for a week.

I'm a stay-at-home type girl recently. No mood to hang out as long as the problem still exists.

CRAP

hate my bangs with awkward length. It makes me uncomfortable.

Currently I'm crazy over a korea dance show!

"Dancing 9"

Everyone shows the great dancing skill in their performance!

I just found the amazing feature of Hyoyeon

She is so charming when performing the popping and locking dance

Start to like her because of this show. hahaha

Girls who know how to dance glow in the dazzling charm naturally when they dance

So pretty!

Couldn't find much the photos of the participants

more information in

http://dancing9.interest.me/index.m

C O M P L I CATED

I feel something so right but doing the wrong thing
I feel soemthing so wrong but doing the right thing. - CountingStars

Does anyone sometimes feel the same way with me? Doing the bad things, doing what we want when we feel like it, doing something without caring someone's thought and feeling, doing like you're the king of your life and hurt the people around you because you just want to have a little escape from your life, escape from your suffocating life.

It doesn't mean that my family or my friends isn't treating me well. They treat me well and I appreciate what I have in my life. I lead a happy life but I do have the suffocating feeling somehow.

Sometimes I just wish to switch off the unnecessary superfluous humanity like a vampire did.

To be honest, sometimes the stupid care is like a chain, it just lock you up from something you want to and eventually you give up because you afraid of being bold and not to care about how others think.
Because of this unnecessary care, I feel like I am living for others not for myself. Being manipulated by people's emotion and the unprovoked rules *damnit*
Maybe this is my dark side: The Ruthless Me
When I know exactly what I want, what I've to do, what I know it's good for me, people can't demand me to do what they want me to do. The words "you should" "you have" "you must" become so damn whatsoever in my ear and my mind. I really don't care.
Here comes with another issue, the "I don't care" brings the hurt to people.
I feel unwanted somehow
I looks happy every day because I don't like to bring the sulky vibes to people
Although I feel emo or sad, it takes a very short time for me to recover from the unhappiness. I move on fast.
there's a but in everyone's life, either do I.

When I don't appear, no one ever finds me
When I want to say something no one ever listens to me

like just ignore what I've said
or doesn't take that something on my chest seriously
or when I said something people just cut across and say theirs eventually people totally ignored what I said.
Okay. Maybe my words aren't that convincing. 
Sometimes people just throw a damp over me when I try to say something with high spirits. As time passes, I don't feel like wanting to share anything with anyone else.
At the beginning I feel disappointed, sad, after that feeling annoyed and in the end I feel nothing.
I am in the "Nothing" stage right now. I don't care about this anymore. All I want is live my life happily, play hard, work hard and never leave a sorry to myself. I should have said I really don't care people's feeling anymore except my family. Not anymore.
This emptiness engulfed me but not anymore.
Be strong because I can against these shits already.
What I have to declare is
Even I don't care, I am still real to everyone.
I believe that when I'm nice to people, people will be nice to me too.

- Don't blame me for not caring anybody else just shut up -

“You may think your only choices are to swallow your anger or throw it in someone’s face, but there’s a third option - you can just let it go. And only when you do that is it really gone and you can move forward.”

—	Ted Mosby, How I Met Your Mother

I am not pessimistic. I choose to let go of bad feelings and save the great moment in my life.
I did it. I'm satisfied with everything I have right now.

“You can’t design your life like a building. It doesn’t work that way. You just have to live it, and it will design itself.”

—

HIMYM

How amazing a life is when you don't have to make friend and adjust yourself into friends purposely.
They just come when the timing is right.
I don't care whether a people is real or fake as long as I am happy with them.
No one is really real right. I will not in denial with this fact.
Everyone tells lie, everyone has ever pretended to be something
but there's no wrong, deep down some lies with good intention
One will be drained by hate, grudges, dissatisfaction if they can't see the good things in their life.
Hate is like a deep well, you can't walk out from that unless you let it go. No one can save you from the negative thought but yourself.
HOW I MET YOUR MOTHER makes me learn a lot. It's not only a comedy for me but a life lesson.
We don't have to care about the trifling matter like who is who's priority, who ever tells lie to you.
The truth is always cruel, I stop looking for the truth when I'm glad with anyone else.
Over take notice of the trivial superfluous emotion ruins the good moments.
but I still want to say

Sometimes I really don't care

when I sick of something repeated

I feel relieved right now. After writing out my real feelings, my heartless dark side lol

When I am outrageous LOL

“I guess it’s better to face it and move on than try to force something that isn’t meant to be, right?”

—	Ted Mosby, How I Met Your Mother

I'm kinda impatient girl :O

My innocence is wearing thin but my heart is growing strong

I'm trying to be a active blogger but obviously I fail to do it =.=

I am impatient to do everything

I wish to create my own blogskin, learn to create CSS and HTML on my own

My impatience and laziness kill all the motivation in doing everything. I have to change urghhhhh

But the way I will continue to learn how to create the css, I'm just too crazy over it. Probably this is my new hobby right now? lol weird hobby. Anyone can teach me? So I can learn it in a easier way without squeezing my brain /.\ 
I am not a tech-student so I just can learn the tech-thing myself. The regret of not choosing tech-stream starts to arise in my mind again *arghhh*. Why do I choose science stream? I'm sucks in biology. However, if I chose the tech-stream last year, I wouldn't have so perfect classmates like this year :D Dilemma. In this case, what I can do is continue fighting until I graduate ^^

  

My nuffnang finally reach RM1..... Oh well it still has a long distance of RM49 to get the cheque...but never mind I can wait it hahaha Maybe it takes forever to reach. *fed up*
Since my english is sucks and I have to brush up my english, my post will be all in english from now on. If anyone saw my grammar mistakes or whatever error, can leave comments or correction in chatbox ._. 

Lazy blabla tried to take a nap for 5 minutes but ended up with 2 hours - - Student's poor life haha
Procastination repeats and repeats in my life. I love school but sometimes I do hopefully wish Miley comes with a wrecking ball to my school so that I don't have to wake up so damn early and go to there.
Oh god,  I hate shopping right now. I even can't believe that I would have this feeling. It's too tiring, testing the shirt, dress blablabla I hate that tsk tsk 
After shopping for 2 days, the only feeling I have is EXHAUSTED, like running for marathon.


I just want to stay at home

Hush Hush now.

Hi I'm here again. Maybe this is the only place I can write my all feelings with no boundaries, no limits and no one can bother. We don't have to go through all this right? If someone ever thinks that I feel good or happy when I saw the tweets stuff with no space, then you're wrong. I've great time in class doesn't mean I will forget everyone everything. Why do we have to make things messy and messy instead of getting back like before we did? We used to be soul mate, sister, BFF or whatever but overthinking has definitely stopped all that continuing to happen. That's what I've been thinking for these days, months, every hour, every minute, every second. So am I happy? I guess I'm not really happy. At least we are clear about something now, but i don't think things will get back to the original point, do we......Friends shouldn't have class right, every friend is same level. No first or second or the only priority. What I'm afraid of is finally happened. I know exactly where the heart is but seems like nobody thinks the same way with me and this creates problem. I don't know what should I do except convincing, having a talk....Sometimes you have to go through something just can make your mind clear to figure out something subconsciously and everything will be okay as you've figured it out. So just try to walk out from the paranoid overthinking shits DAMN IT I HATE OVERTHINKING What the damn hell is that? Can we just erase what have happened this year and start a new life next year? Let us leave a sweet memories instead of emotional shits....We're going to graduate next year.... Okay, probably mindless dreaming but the 2-month holiday maybe is the best time to let us calm ourselves down. Everyone envies others but never notices there are great things around them. Of course not me, I'm sucks. I try to write my feeling here doesn't mean to screw everything up or end everything up just make us clear. 

Emo thing is finished now is about the comedy and sitcom :D Of course firstly recommended sitcom is  "How I met your mother". Ted finally met the Mother in season 9. Robin and Barney are married after so many breakups ._. 

Okay secondly is "White Chicks", the old movie in the year 2004. This is super duper hilarious! How did the other girls don't notice that they are actually boys = =

And thirdly the korean drama "The Heir" - One who wants to wear the crown, bears the crown. Lee Min Ho is so damn handsome, and everyone is so damn rich! A quite nice drama about the teens. 

Byeeeeeee.

` What a beautiful day All I need is a taste Nothing but a good time Sippin' on the sunshine`  - Sippin' On Sunshine_AvrilLavigne