I feel something so right but doing the wrong thing
I feel soemthing so wrong but doing the right thing. - CountingStars
Does anyone sometimes feel the same way with me? Doing the bad things, doing what we want when we feel like it, doing something without caring someone's thought and feeling, doing like you're the king of your life and hurt the people around you because you just want to have a little escape from your life, escape from your suffocating life.
It doesn't mean that my family or my friends isn't treating me well. They treat me well and I appreciate what I have in my life. I lead a happy life but I do have the suffocating feeling somehow.
Sometimes I just wish to switch off the unnecessary superfluous humanity like a vampire did.
To be honest, sometimes the stupid care is like a chain, it just lock you up from something you want to and eventually you give up because you afraid of being bold and not to care about how others think.
Because of this unnecessary care, I feel like I am living for others not for myself. Being manipulated by people's emotion and the unprovoked rules *damnit*
Maybe this is my dark side: The Ruthless Me
When I know exactly what I want, what I've to do, what I know it's good for me, people can't demand me to do what they want me to do. The words "you should" "you have" "you must" become so damn whatsoever in my ear and my mind. I really don't care.
Here comes with another issue, the "I don't care" brings the hurt to people.
I feel unwanted somehow
I looks happy every day because I don't like to bring the sulky vibes to people
Although I feel emo or sad, it takes a very short time for me to recover from the unhappiness. I move on fast.
there's abut in everyone's life, either do I.
When I don't appear, no one ever finds me
When I want to say something no one ever listens to me
like just ignore what I've said
or doesn't take that something on my chest seriously
or when I said something people just cut across and say theirs eventually people totally ignored what I said.
Okay. Maybe my words aren't that convincing.
Sometimes people just throw a damp over me when I try to say something with high spirits. As time passes, I don't feel like wanting to share anything with anyone else.
At the beginning I feel disappointed, sad, after that feeling annoyed and in the end I feel nothing.
I am in the "Nothing" stage right now. I don't care about this anymore. All I want is live my life happily, play hard, work hard and never leave a sorry to myself. I should have said I really don't care people's feeling anymore except my family. Not anymore.
This emptiness engulfed me but not anymore.
Be strong because I can against these shits already.
What I have to declare is
Even I don't care, I am still real to everyone.
I believe that when I'm nice to people, people will be nice to me too.
I am not pessimistic. I choose to let go of bad feelings and save the great moment in my life.
I did it. I'm satisfied with everything I have right now.
How amazing a life is when you don't have to make friend and adjust yourself into friends purposely.
They just come when the timing is right.
I don't care whether a people is real or fake as long as I am happy with them.
No one is really real right. I will not in denial with this fact.
Everyone tells lie, everyone has ever pretended to be something
but there's no wrong, deep down some lies with good intention
One will be drained by hate, grudges, dissatisfaction if they can't see the good things in their life.
Hate is like a deep well, you can't walk out from that unless you let it go. No one can save you from the negative thought but yourself.
HOW I MET YOUR MOTHER makes me learn a lot. It's not only a comedy for me but a life lesson.
We don't have to care about the trifling matter like who is who's priority, who ever tells lie to you.
The truth is always cruel, I stop looking for the truth when I'm glad with anyone else.
Over take notice of the trivial superfluous emotion ruins the good moments.
but I still want to say
Sometimes I really don't care
when I sick of something repeated
I feel relieved right now. After writing out my real feelings, my heartless dark side lol
When I am outrageous LOL
Because of this unnecessary care, I feel like I am living for others not for myself. Being manipulated by people's emotion and the unprovoked rules *damnit*
Maybe this is my dark side: The Ruthless Me
When I know exactly what I want, what I've to do, what I know it's good for me, people can't demand me to do what they want me to do. The words "you should" "you have" "you must" become so damn whatsoever in my ear and my mind. I really don't care.
Here comes with another issue, the "I don't care" brings the hurt to people.
I feel unwanted somehow
I looks happy every day because I don't like to bring the sulky vibes to people
Although I feel emo or sad, it takes a very short time for me to recover from the unhappiness. I move on fast.
there's a
When I don't appear, no one ever finds me
When I want to say something no one ever listens to me
like just ignore what I've said
or doesn't take that something on my chest seriously
or when I said something people just cut across and say theirs eventually people totally ignored what I said.
Okay. Maybe my words aren't that convincing.
Sometimes people just throw a damp over me when I try to say something with high spirits. As time passes, I don't feel like wanting to share anything with anyone else.
At the beginning I feel disappointed, sad, after that feeling annoyed and in the end I feel nothing.
I am in the "Nothing" stage right now. I don't care about this anymore. All I want is live my life happily, play hard, work hard and never leave a sorry to myself. I should have said I really don't care people's feeling anymore except my family. Not anymore.
This emptiness engulfed me but not anymore.
Be strong because I can against these shits already.
What I have to declare is
Even I don't care, I am still real to everyone.
I believe that when I'm nice to people, people will be nice to me too.
- Don't blame me for not caring anybody else just shut up -
“You may think your only choices are to swallow your anger or throw it in someone’s face, but there’s a third option - you can just let it go. And only when you do that is it really gone and you can move forward.”
| — | Ted Mosby, How I Met Your Mother |
I did it. I'm satisfied with everything I have right now.
“You can’t design your life like a building. It doesn’t work that way. You just have to live it, and it will design itself.”
| — | HIMYM |
They just come when the timing is right.
I don't care whether a people is real or fake as long as I am happy with them.
No one is really real right. I will not in denial with this fact.
Everyone tells lie, everyone has ever pretended to be something
but there's no wrong, deep down some lies with good intention
One will be drained by hate, grudges, dissatisfaction if they can't see the good things in their life.
Hate is like a deep well, you can't walk out from that unless you let it go. No one can save you from the negative thought but yourself.
HOW I MET YOUR MOTHER makes me learn a lot. It's not only a comedy for me but a life lesson.
We don't have to care about the trifling matter like who is who's priority, who ever tells lie to you.
The truth is always cruel, I stop looking for the truth when I'm glad with anyone else.
Over take notice of the trivial superfluous emotion ruins the good moments.
but I still want to say
I feel relieved right now. After writing out my real feelings, my heartless dark side lol
“I guess it’s better to face it and move on than try to force something that isn’t meant to be, right?”
| — | Ted Mosby, How I Met Your Mother |
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