Everything had changed.

Everything had changed HAHAHA

The reason I put it as title is yeah things changed, mind changed, people changed after 3rd March.

I have new life now and everything is going smooth so far.

I'm appreciated that I can meet a gang of friends though we aren't that close yet 

coz we were just be friends since 2 days ago. 

They are JIAJIA, WHITNEY, HAZELINE, NAVLEEN, WEIKHANG AND BERNARD

I LOVE MY CURRENT LIFE AND I HOPE IT WILL BE GOING WELL FOR THIS WHOLE YEAR. #2015 

I realised so much after 3rd of March like I used to be so hardworking and putting so much effort and yeah I get nothing but only a paper HAHAHAHA #thuglife

and I swear I won't repeat the life I used to lead when I was in high school. NEVER. 

1. Result is just Result. It does nothing with your life.

I was caring so much about my result in my high school because I was scared to lag behind my friends around me. Everyone around me or anyone in my class was smarter and clever than me when I was in Jit Sin and gradually I got used to the life of studying hard in order to obtain good grades in exam.
PLEASE DON'T EVER LIVE LIKE THAT OR ELSE YOUR HIGH SCHOOL LIFE WILL BE A BLANK SPACE.

I'm not saying that you can play until neglecting your study but just try your best. Not for the marks but for your own satisfaction. If you are satisfied with what you get, it's okay ady.
I get the best result I ever have in SPM in my whole school life but then I realise that it is useless when you don't get 9A+ and above. I never get such a good result even in my form 5 LOL HOW IRONY, I AM JUST HAPPY MYSELF

My mum is happy and proud but whatever comments I get from relatives and people are shit.

People will just said "可惜咯 差一个A+" "可怜你 拿不到bursary"

"为么叻? 你失水准?" THE HECK IS THAT I DON'T THINK I'M THE PITIFUL ONE

People will just look at whether your result is good enough to get the scholarship to prestigious college and university in local or oversea.

When you don't, SPM result is just a WHITE PAPER PRINTED WITH SOME BLACK WORDS

It doesn't guarantee your life, your choice, your everything. 

Who cares? Just go to the colleges that you can afford, it's not a must to enter a prestigious university, life is still beautiful when you stop being too clinging about the things you can't get. Not everyone comes from a wealthy family and is able to afford such a high cost study fees. Just look at another bright side, you will find a new way out of your life.

2. Never makes friend by looking their GRADE.

People who don't get a straight As may even know how to live life to its fullness than anyone. 

Yeah this is what I learn since I study in INTI. Friends around me may don't get a marvelous result but they are more ambitious than anyone, I find they are awesome and optimistic and know how to enrich their living experience than anyone of us. GRADE DOESN'T REPRESENT ANYTHING.

You don't have to be inferior, you can always unearth you hidden talent.

I love my life here bcoz everyone can be friends without looking at the exam result.

I hate categorizing friends by grade seriously DAMN IRRITATED BY SUCH PERSON

You can't say that people who are not good in study must be bad people and will not be successful in their future. Who can predict future? NEVER UNDERESTIMATE EVERYONE.

I know the feeling of being graded by people with result.

When I was in high school, there was a girl who said that I'm a lazy and lifeless girl because I am the last in my class rank and I didn't complete my homework everyday. She even told her dearest friend who was close with me to be distant with me. *LOL* being the last in first class is SHIT

THAT'S SUCKS and I always pretended I don't really mind her words but actually I was really hurt by those words.

Luckily chloroboat helped me alot so that I could handle my study better. *they are the precious ones who should be thanked for such a good result I get in SPM* Thank you so much T.T I will never forget them

Thank you for the days that helping me, giving me advice and guidance all the time with patience. I hope you guys will have a bright future and all the best!

3.Try to be independent and be optimistic in life you lead.

We always know we can't control how things happen in our life and we can't change things which have happened. I was so depressed 3 days ago due to the issue of applying scholarship and the struggle whether I have to transfer colleges.

I was so insecure when I knew that the people that I'm familiar with have transferred due to the scholarships. 

I started to think about the negative stuff and start blaming myself for not putting more effort. I began to compare the colleges and reading the comments and things got even worse. The problem of reading reviews is you can't make up your mind and and being influenced by people words and people thought, like a swinging vine, swings in the world of comments.

I end up giving up and face the reality in the end because I can't stand to put myself in such woeful situation. Though I'm still applying scholarship but I don't really hope to get any of it when I have to compete with whole malaysia SPM students.

The life of being independent is good. you will never know how strong you can be until you try.

It's amazing how my mind can change that much in only 2 days when mixing around with new friends. I don't get depressed anymore and become more optimistic.

Friends can't be by my side forever, I always keep this in mind. 

Like Qian told me before, 

"We are prepared to be alone in a brand new environment without anyone who you are familiar with, if we gain new friends, just take it as extra bonus."

This is such a good quote HAAHAHA 

I used to hear a lot of bad comments about INTI but yeah things turn better on the first day.

Friends even take care of you when they know your close friends are not around. We eat together, sit together, joke around with one another, recommend nice food and places together.

I'm surprised that thing are not as bad as it seems and even better. The lecturer is nice and everything goes so far so good.

4. Dream vs Reality
I admire people who have a big dream actually hahahaha I'm a realest person and I don't have any ambitious dream like being the best engineer, changing people's life with my knowledge, constributing best idea to the world using science.
My dream: 吃喝玩乐 lol That's why I choose to face the reality.
To be honest, I just randomly choose a course that I don't resist
But now I don't feel regretted, in fact I start developing love with it
I don't know what course I'm interested in but I 100% know what course I hate the most.
YEAH I HATE SCIENCE THOUGH I AM FROM SCIENCE STREAM
*I chose the wrong path in high school and I know how suffering I'm whenever I read every single word in biology, chemistry and physics*
To be honest I never ended up studying science subjects with a happy face, instead I teared my Success biology reference book and throw a tantrum to the book during every exam"
So pissed to see the scientific terms HAHAHA
Question I get asked the most
"Why you change to commerce? You are definitely wasting what you have learnt in Science stream"
"What you want to do after you finish your business study?"
"What are the careers of business? I thought business can only be salesman"
I don't even know how to answer sorry lol I don't even know what I want to be.
Anything involves in business and finance field is okay for me.
I can't predict my future so the only thing I can do is strive for the best.
Who knows? What if I can't achieve what I've said I want to be LOL
Just let it be. Happy go lucky ^__^


All the best and bye .__.